Not let myself become jaded again. I decided to put myself out there after years of guarding my feelings close to the vest and almost immediately get my heart trampled on. Second-guessing my choice in lifemates. Currently that’s the only thing keeping me going maybe I’m just bad at it bad at choosing the right people to trust. Of course that leads to a whole nother query how do I get better at it? Why didn’t I figure out this way earlier in my life?